The post below is from February 7, 2017. There was a lot going on at the time and I look back on it as one of the more turbulent times in my life and in my ministry for reasons I won’t get into here. However, as I was going through this site, that I rarely post on or update, I saw this unpublished post that I think deserves (and deserved) to see the light of day.
The post below is directly related to a book by Brene Brown called Daring Greatly. Daring Greatly was very helpful for me during that time, and because of it I made decisions and took steps that helped to bring me through.
The funny thing was, her book had been on my Audible wish list for a very long time and only then did I take a listen. God is always right on time, especially with music and book recommendations. It’s actually happening again right now with a different book, but that’s another post.
Trust God, even in the tough times, and heed the Holy Spirit’s urging to read or listen to resources that can be of service. Enjoy this blast from the past below:
Untitled – From February 2017
I am reading this book on vulnerability and I feel like a weakling. The book is called Daring Greatly by Brene Brown and the title is taken from a famous Teddy Roosevelt speech about the man in the arena. Here’s a piece of it:
It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who neither know victory nor defeat.
The author wrote something so remarkably profound and I read/heard it today. She wrote that “shame hangs out in the parking lot of the arena”. Shame is always waiting to tell us that we’re not _____ enough to enter the arena and especially not to win.
Brown references what she calls “shame tapes” which are the voices that play in your head in the parking lot of that arena. So much of my personality is playing defense against these shame tapes. I am trying to face these things, but I am struggling. I am trying desperately to find my way and to dare greatly, but it’s hard. And I am scared. This is the realest stuff I have written in a while. I am sorry if it’s too much or too heavy for the moment, but it’s real.